Note: I’ll be mentioning the word “Vagal” a lot here, which refers to the Vagus Nerve. “Ventral Vagal” means the part of this nerve that comes out the front of the brain stem, “Dorsal Vagal” means the part that comes out the back. For more info on this nerve’s functions you might want to check out this past article.
Today I kinda missed my ‘ol pal, Depression. But not really.
Back in the day, when my nervous system was way more messed up, I used to be able to go to bed at 10 and wake up at 9. Or I could stay up super late till 2 or 3 and sleep till noon. Gone are those days and the reason is that I’m just too damn healthy now!
But back when I was still struggling with depression and anxiety, this is what was going on in my nervous system…
Depression: There was a large shutdown, or FREEZE response, in my system.
This was due to all the overwhelm and trauma that I had not been able to process through the course of my infant-hood and young life. When we get overwhelmed and there is no possibility of escape or fighting back – such as in the case of a massive injury that happened before you knew what hit you, or that you that you chose to suppress so you could look cool, or when there is abuse or neglect by parents or older siblings – the system has only one option left… shutdown.
The manifestation of an unresolved shutdown response can look like many things: low energy, lack of ability to focus, lack of drive and motivation, poor digestion, fibromyalgia and a whole bunch of other autoimmune disorders, and what we’ve come to call depression. The part of the nervous system that governs this response is the high tone dorsal vagal complex (I’ll explain more about what “high-tone” means in a minute).
Anxiety: The reason the FREEZE response came online to protect me in the first place is because there was a massive FIGHT/FLIGHT response that had nowhere to go. The manifestation of unresolved FIGHT/FLIGHT responses can look like many things: uncontrollable, eruptive rage (FIGHT) and anxiety (FLIGHT) as well as tight muscles, muscle spasms, heart disease, lack of ability to focus, poor digestion, and even cancer. The part of the nervous system that governs this response is the sympathetic nervous system.
These powerful survival energies were all sitting in my system leaving very little room for healthy regulation. Instead of being predominantly in a ventral-vagal state, which is where we are meant to primarily exist when awake (this is the part of the nervous system that supports social engagement, critical thinking and creativity) I was flip-flopping between go-go-go-go! (sympathetic) and crash! (high-tone dorsal).
Does this sound familiar to any of you?
These were the primary “go-to” options that I had available and I learned to live with them, but my body was exhausted almost all the time because these survival energies use massive amounts of lifeforce and they are meant to be time limited!
Meaning they are supposed to last seconds or minutes, not decades.
So of course I could stay up super late and sleep for 10 or 12 hours! My body was pumping adrenaline and, simultaneously, exhausted and wrung out. Instead of falling gently into healthy sleep I was basically collapsing into my freeze state when I couldn’t maintain my adrenaline-fueled fight/flight state anymore.
So, back to today…..
I’ve been doing some very deep processing the last couple days and my body was a bit “sick” (meaning I was releasing an old layer of stored-up toxic energy). So last night I decided to go to sleep at 10 pm so I could really get a “good night’s sleep”.
In my mind I still expect this to mean 10 hours or so.
I woke up completely rested at 5 am.
This is thanks to Healthy Low-Tone Dorsal!!!
Remember when I said that the FREEZE response is governed by a high-tone dorsal vagal state? First let’s talk about what “high-tone” means. This simply means that there is a lot of energy going into this portion of the nervous system – it’s turned on all the way.
When you turn down the intensity you get the low-tone dorsal state. This is what is supposed to be predominantly active when we are resting or sleeping. The low tone dorsal state supports healthy digestion, barrier-keeping of the gut, tissue repair, cell regeneration and immune function – all of which are not available in the high-tone dorsal state.
When we have lived through trauma and our nervous system is running lots of old, unresolved survival energy through it we don’t have much access to the very state we need in order to repair the body.
So now when I sleep, I really sleep. Yes, I do miss those long, lazy slumbers and lay-ins, but my body is functioning way more efficiently and therefore I need much less sleep, which means I can do things like get up at 5 am and write this article!
So I’m not going to complain…. much.
Recently, I was compiling some notes for an upcoming interview – there will be an article coming out about me and my work in The Vancouver Courier sometime next month. The interview ended up being mostly about my somatic work with trauma and nervous system physiology and how that relates to spirituality (which was cool), but at first I thought it was just going to be about the sound healing aspect of my practice so I wrote up these notes about how sound promotes healing in the body and mind.
The neocortex and the ventral vagal complex (VVC) are the two most evolved portions of our brain (the neocortex) and nervous system (VVC).
The neocortex is what enables abstract thinking about concepts such as science, the arts, spirituality, philosophy, etc..and also supports activities within those disciplines. Essentially, it is the main part of our brain that differs from other mammals. Use of the neocortex is best facilitated by a smoothly running, well-developed ventral vagal complex.
Pleasant sound positively stimulates the ventral vagal complex by engaging the inner ear which the VVC enervates.
In a therapeutic setting sound is a great “non-content” stimuli (i.e. – disconnected from any story or painful memories – unless the client has negative associations with those particular sounds – something to ask about beforehand!). It can be a gentle way to wake up the social engagement function (that which enables us to be comfortable and attuned with others) which facilitates a feeling of safety.
By attuning to the client and responding appropriately with varying sounds, tempos, rhythms and volume, we can build tolerance for emotion and sensation.
Our brains and nervous systems did not evolve in an industrial setting, yet in our industrialized world we are constantly bombarded by mechanical, low-pitched vibrations and loud industrial sounds that are very often subconsciously perceived as threat. Taking time to come out of that noise into a quiet space and be exposed to the pure tones of things like drumming, crystal singing bowls, and the human voice greatly promotes ease in the system. It can help people get into the ”rest and repair” portion of their physiology, which helps everything.
On the more esoteric end…Sound is also therapeutic in that it not only passes into the ear, the sound waves penetrate and pass through the entire body. Sound carries with it the meaning that surrounds it’s creation – this may expressed in lyrics or the emotion of the singer, or by the intention of the practitioner. I can focus on my compassion and universal love for my client, or on repairing a connection between chakras, etc.. while singing and playing the singing bowls and that intention is literally carried into their body, riding on those sound waves – creating those “good vibrations” the Beach Boys sang about.
So I was putting together this graphic for my lovely wife, Irene, for her upcoming course and I thought I’d share it with you, and a little bit about why it’s important.
At first glance you might think…… huh? So let me explain a bit.
This is a picture of all of the organs in the chest and abdomen that are enervated by the Vagus Nerve. “Supra-Diaphragmatic” and “Sub-Diaphragmatic” are science speak for above and below the diaphragm – that band of shiny muscle that lets us breath.
The important thing to really see in this picture is that ALL these organs are run by different branches of the same nerve – it governs digestion, breathing, heart rate, immune functions, etc…. in other words, this picture shows very clearly just how damn important that Vagus is.
Now, here’s the connection to what that means for you, as people who are interested in your health and sense of well-being…
The Vagus nerve also governs something else, and that is the big shut down, or FREEZE response, that happens when our physiology detects that our life is in danger. When that happens the Vagus sends out a message to all those organs it’s connected to, telling everybody to slow down. The heart slows, digestion crawls to a stop, our breathing gets shallow and our whole body enters a low-oxygen state of conservation in which we are numbed out to our own sensations.
This shut down is very often part of what happens when we live as survivors of trauma, or chronic stress. As an infant, this shut down response can happen very easily. Simply leave a baby to “cry itself to sleep” (which is a ridiculous phrase as it implies some sort of self-soothing which a baby is physiologically unable to do – they’re just not wired for it yet) what actually happens is that baby’s sympathetic nervous system revs and revs – the crying, progressing to shrieking, etc… until the body literally feels that it will die and so it shuts down and the baby essentially passes out.
I give this example to point out how very common it is for a person to be walking around with some level of this unresolved freeze response sitting in their system. It can happen from an injury in front of peers, where you hold it all in and “play it cool”, when actually you are simply numbing out and disassociating. There are countless ways in our society that a person may pass through overwhelming experiences that will trigger this shut-down response.
Here’s the real kicker – this survival response is meant to be time-limited. Animals come out of it naturally, often accompanied by shaking and twitching all over, discharging the fight or flight energy that built up before the freeze took over.
Us humans though, with our big smart neo-cortexes, we have the power to actually suppress this natural process of thawing and we are usually encouraged to do so from a very young age.
“Don’t cry”, “Be a big girl”, etc… is enough to train a young nervous system to repress the natural flow, and if that kid was a baby that was left to cry itself to sleep, this pattern will already be ingrained as a response to anything overwhelming.
Then, very easily, everything becomes overwhelming as that kid’s nervous system gets more and more blocked up and disorganized. Welcome to your lifetime struggle with anxiety and depression, kid!
Here is the real point though… it doesn’t have to be a lifetime struggle.
Thanks to innovators like Peter Levine, Stephen Porges, Pat Ogden, Bessel Van De Kolk and many more who have developed and advanced psychobiological approaches to trauma therapy, we can now help people re-regulate their bruised and battered nervous systems and psyches.
I know, cause I was one of those kids and now I help others do just this!
Remember…. what happens in Vagus, stays in Vagus….. unless you help it get out!